Thanks....Gratitude or aversion?
I say it a lot and I always mean it, but to be honest, I never knew I meant it in which way? Come'on, doesn't "Thank you" have two meanings? May be more and I haven't realized it yet, don't you agree?
I realized its second meaning when I lost living, when I lost the five senses, when I lost the aim of breathing, when I felt my uselessness. When people offered me much; multiple lifebuoys, many ventilators, additive limbs, and I'm still surviving in my coma, determinate to stay like that till death knocks my soul down. Still my conscience is alive telling me that I should say "Thanks", but this time not out of gratitude, it is out of aversion. "Thanks" is switched from the tenderest word to a cancer-like structure, when it means "Stop giving, I've decided to commit the worst. Stop caring, I've killed my humanity.Why now does your angelic side shine on me? Where was it when all what was left for me is a devil as a company?" Oh no! That flip of "Thanks" from being its meaning "I understand your sacrifice and I respect it. I confess it is a debt I'll work hard to pay it back. I'll remember you in each prayer for saving this critical state of mine. You'll be always the closest to my heart for having my back." to "I don't need your heroic act. Please, stop being around. Thanks for what you've done for me but don't give me again, I am turning to a thankless creature and I don't wanna hurt you."
Please, let's have some clarity of mind. Why would we waste hours of our lives, the whole world count us as living things and we're doing nothing like a dead body, then we call it "Depression"? Why do we look at depression as an illness which we didn't share in its causes to occur? Depression is stimulated by our hopelessness while we are surrounded with people who love us; even if you're friendless, you still have your parents; even if you're an orphan, you still have your role models; even if you're surrounded by losers, you have God to depend on and He will never let you down.
So, whenever you'll find yourself using "Thanks" with its second meaning, give yourself a wake-up slap, tell yourself no place for hopelessness, depression is mythical, I've God to provide me strength, so I'll always be a winner.
I say it a lot and I always mean it, but to be honest, I never knew I meant it in which way? Come'on, doesn't "Thank you" have two meanings? May be more and I haven't realized it yet, don't you agree?
I realized its second meaning when I lost living, when I lost the five senses, when I lost the aim of breathing, when I felt my uselessness. When people offered me much; multiple lifebuoys, many ventilators, additive limbs, and I'm still surviving in my coma, determinate to stay like that till death knocks my soul down. Still my conscience is alive telling me that I should say "Thanks", but this time not out of gratitude, it is out of aversion. "Thanks" is switched from the tenderest word to a cancer-like structure, when it means "Stop giving, I've decided to commit the worst. Stop caring, I've killed my humanity.Why now does your angelic side shine on me? Where was it when all what was left for me is a devil as a company?" Oh no! That flip of "Thanks" from being its meaning "I understand your sacrifice and I respect it. I confess it is a debt I'll work hard to pay it back. I'll remember you in each prayer for saving this critical state of mine. You'll be always the closest to my heart for having my back." to "I don't need your heroic act. Please, stop being around. Thanks for what you've done for me but don't give me again, I am turning to a thankless creature and I don't wanna hurt you."Please, let's have some clarity of mind. Why would we waste hours of our lives, the whole world count us as living things and we're doing nothing like a dead body, then we call it "Depression"? Why do we look at depression as an illness which we didn't share in its causes to occur? Depression is stimulated by our hopelessness while we are surrounded with people who love us; even if you're friendless, you still have your parents; even if you're an orphan, you still have your role models; even if you're surrounded by losers, you have God to depend on and He will never let you down.
So, whenever you'll find yourself using "Thanks" with its second meaning, give yourself a wake-up slap, tell yourself no place for hopelessness, depression is mythical, I've God to provide me strength, so I'll always be a winner.
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